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YESSS THE WIG CAME.
I need to wash it with conditioner and try to comb it into a better shape.

Also, I got Hungary for our cosplay group, too, yay~
(So now we have North Italy, South Italy that's me, Prussia and Hungary.)

Also also also, Paypal put that ~90€ back to my bank account since it never reached my Paypal account because I made a little oopsiedaisy with the transfer~ So I don't have to meddle with that anymore.

I was supposed to go and watch the fabrics for and with Prussia and Hungary, but it's rainy and chilly day, so...

Watched Biker Mice From Mars again. Damn they rock.


EDIT: OHHH I ALSO GOT THIS http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=110400048747&_trkparms=tab%3DWatching *GLEE*

So uhhh yeah I should be sleeping. Not sleepy at all though.


Went to the Rosso with a friend yesterday, we ate a big pizza and two large ice cream portions. Was full for the whole day.

Also, I got my friend to cosplay Prussia for Animecon.



... now I'm in my bed with laptop.


Uhhh I guess I could watch that X-Men 2 mom got me from the flea market.

Whew, after some minor hassling I've finally paid the whole cosplay-costume, extra fees and all. Now I just hopes it comes in time.
The wig ought to arrive next week.

Jesus, I really shouldn't do business at this time of night. When I tried to pay the extra fee with paypal it asked me ID and password separately apart from the logging in. I tried to figure out before what was the "Paypal ID" I was meant to send to the seller and found out it was the e-mail address with what I log in, so I tried to put that in there and the paypal just goes "nnnooo that won't do, try something else" and then I try to put my name and again "ahaha no". After nearly starting to panic and get pissed while trying to figure what the hell I should put to the ID, I notice this one thing...
"eBay ID:"
"eBay password:"
....... I DIDN'T KNOW WEATHER TO LAUGH OR CRY. Well, at least I figured it out and got the payment done. *headdesk*


Aah and yes, there's still some money left in my Paypal account so I can buy this one thing from eBay that I reallyreallyreally want...

 

Aaaaahh there were so much Hetalia-cosplayers at Desucon. I wish I could've cosplayed Romano there. Now I can't wait for Animecon, where there'll be even more people cosplaying Hetalia.


 

Just paid the wig for Romano-cosplay, that I bought from eBay. It should arrive in couple weeks. :>

Um, okay, so, apparently mom does not approve. "You have to get in somewhere, you can't just laze at home the whole year." Yeah I told her I'd get a job but she says I might not get one because of the recession.

So. Hectic crying and complete hopelessness and depression because she wasn't behind me on this one and her opinions matter to me the most. It felt like she'd be ashamed of me if I didn't get into the university and would have to go to work.

A bit after that got angry because she made me feel so bad and she didn't seem to care at all how I felt about the whole thing.
Decided to tell her how I felt about it and try to explain it to her one more time, but I was shot down with her first sentence.
Somehow it had stuck to me that my big sister didn't get in to the university at the first try, either. So, I asked that from mom to start the conversation and prove my point. "Your sister got in just barely at the first try."
I've always been afraid that I'd get compared to my big sister, because she's so great and well... I'm not. And now that she said that, it crushed all my arguments and I couldn't say anything else.

Even more hectic crying and the feeling of total nothingness.




After crying myself pretty much dry, I'm feeling pretty numb and I don't give a damn what she thinks, I'll do what I want to do and that's it.

Got my new laptop yesterday (HP Pavilion dv6-1100so). Love it. Named it London. (The other computer is Gregori.)


I am... trying to start reading to the archeology entrance examination, but... it really doesn't interest me that much anymore. Actually, it doesn't interest me at all.
When I went to the first entrance examination, I kind of got vexed on how the university looked and felt like. It was so... academic and just screamed READING, READING AND MORE READING AND ACADEMIC THINGS  AND PHILOSOPHICAL CONVERSATIONS THAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND A THING ABOUT AND AREN'T EVEN INTERESTED. Also, I don't even think I'll pass the exam because those things I read just don't stay in my head if I read them only once, and I don't have time to read it twice (I'm even in more hurry than I was with the two other books). Also, the exam consists two essays with 4-6 pages and at school I hardly even reached the 4 pages. So, this reading really feels frustrating. (Especially when others are already on their summer vacations.) 
So now I have the feeling that no way in hell I want to go to a place like that unless I can study japanese language and culture.
I'd rather take a year off and go to work and get paid and then try to get to the university to study japanese next year.
So, I dunno... I'll have to talk about this to mom and hear what she thinks about it.




But now I seriously have to start reading if things don't go as planned.

Uhh haven't updated in a while...
Because I've been reading.
And reading.
And then reading some more.

I've been reading the whole month for the university entrance examinations, so nothing worth writing about has really happened.

So yeaaah. The last few days have been busy, however.

On Thursday I had the kind-of-official photograph taken of me in a dress and high heels and... curls in hair and student cap and such. There was a professional person doing the make-up before the pic was taken, and wow she did a great job.

On Friday I had the entrance examination. It... didn't go that well, so I'll just... start reading MUCH earlier next year...
Also, I met one of my friends while I was at Helsinki, and she told me how her life's been after she moved there... and... JESUS CHRIST HOW HER LIFE GOT SO FUCKED UP. My brains didn't even comprehend all the things she said so I couldn't do anything but just smile and nod and wonder aloud oh my, you're life certainly hasn't been boring. Things that have happened to her, I thought they happen only in the most messed up american tv-series. Christ.
I left from the exam early enough and made it to the graduation rehearsal. That wasn't nice either, since all the people around me were being SO BLOODY ANNOYING (read: usual teenagers). So... Friday was really, really shitty day and I was angry or sad most of the day.

Saturday, on the other hand, was very nice. I had to wake up early to get ready for the graduation (apparently the better term would be matriculation) ceremony/party/don't know what's the right word in english. The ceremony was nice and kinda moving, but I was pretty nervous during the part where we got our diplomas (don't know if that's the right word, either) and roses, since I was among the last ones. After the ceremony we went to the centre and started walking the march from there to the Hero Graves. It was kinda... pain. We walked on the motor road, the sun was shining, no cloud or shades, everyone was very hungry, thirsty and tired. After we arrived to the cemetary, we put our roses in front of the graves and then we were free to go home.
The home party was great, big sister and relatives were there, got lot of roses (blue and white, too <3) and a LOT of cards with money in them. Dad and granpa gave me the pocket watch I've wanted for years ( I LOVE IT and can't stop touching and carrying it with me <3). Mom gave a mug with bunnies in it (and money), one of them has a student cap. I got a pretty necklace from my aunt and a plate from dad's neighbour (whom I have never even seen) that she had painted herself. It had really pretty colours. (I also got money from dad's dance partner, whom I have never seen either, ahahaha what? :D) My relatives from dad's side couldn't make it to the party since they had another party to attend and they live pretty far from us. They gave me a cheque (NICE *thumbs up*) that was worth 440€. All in all, I got 1160€. All the studying finally paid off! Two of my friends came to see me after 6 p.m., when my relatives were gone. The other one gave me a cute badger plushie (okay, it's official; I'm a badger :'D) and the other one hadn't bought me a present yet, and she had to check if I already had it what she was going to buy.
So, a great day, though I was pretty exhausted and my feet were KILLING me (first time wearing high heels for so long... the shoes got a lot of praises, though). Matti filmed most of the day, so we have it on tape.

Today I just chilled (and woke up late).

Tomorrow... I'm going to spend that money a bit. Gonna buy a laptop, new shoes for summer and maybe some clothes (a vest/waistcoat if I'll find a good one).



Next two weeks...
MORE reading for the other university entrance examination (archeology).

Next Saturday there'll be Desucon in Lahti, I'll cosplay Shikamaru (from Naruto Shippuuden) there.

27.6 there will be a cosplay-event at Linnanmäki (an amusement park), I tried to get the uniform of Romano (Axis Powers Hetalia) from eBay, but the money I transferred to Paypal has taken more days than it should (probably my fault, I think I forgot to do one thing...) so the costume wouldn't make it in time. If that's the case, I'll cosplay Shikamaru there, too, and leave Romano for Animecon.


That's.... that's probably all for now...




EDIT: Eddie Izzard is bloody awesome.

Fuck fuck fuck

I want to play piano so bad it makes my heart ache.

UPDATE TIME AGAIN

Urrrm nothing much happened on last week.

On Monday I was supposed to go and lend some exambooks for the university entrance examinations, but there weren't any free at our library. So, I lazed at home. Bad me.

On Tuesday I went to search those books from the bookshop, only one was to be found, but I didn't have enough money for that, so I reserved it (book of archeology). The shop assistant sent some messages to the other cities' bookshops whether they'd have the Finnish grammar book and/or the world of religions book (which, the publishers aren't making anymore, apparently). They'll txt me if they find the religion book, and the grammar books should come to the shop this week.
I also went to search a dress for the graduation party. Found one and reserved it til Thursday.

On Wednesday I... uhhh... can't remember what I did, so it was probably nothing big... (I'm seriously starting to get worried about my memory span)

On Thursday dad picked me up at morning (well 10 a.m. is pretty much morning for me, since I usually wake up around 1 p.m...) and we went to get the graduation dress, and dad bought me the graduation cap at the same (yeah no pressures but I bought the hat for you already)...
I picked up my password for library's online account, too.
I was pretty exhausted for the rest of the day since I woke up after 7 a.m. and didn't get even 3h of sleep. Surfed on the net (while trying not to fall asleep) and later took a nap.

On Friday I'll have to go pick up that archeology-book (and grammar if those have shown up) and after that I'll leave to lu_vy's. I'll be there for the weekend because on Sunday there will be Japan Day at Helsinki and we're going there~


Er, money sure is a weird thing. Last week I had only 12€ at my account (still is, since I can't get it out from there) and today I noticed that I have over 100€ in my wallet... seriously, the heck? Not that I'm complaining. I had a real brainstorm as I was trying to figure where that all came from. Apparently most of it came from mom and dad (some of the money is for the exambooks), but I had saved some myself and got some from selling my books away. If I don't go on a spending spree at the Japan Day, I'll save those for my Hetalia cosplay (I'll probably be Lithuania, but damn, I've gotten pretty attached to South Italy, too).

I also watched Natsume Yuujinchou & Zoku Natsume Yuujinchou during this week. I'm such a sucker for japanese mythology...

Now I should go to sleep, so I'll get enough sleep. (Edit: wow does that sound wise after reading it the second time)

A PLATE FELL ON TO MY TOE.
VERTICALLY.
IT HURT SO BAD.



The plate didn't shatter. (My toe is fine, too.)

Was supposed to update yesterday, but was too tired. OTL

I really should update more often, I can't remember what I did from Wed to Mon...

On Tuesday I had my last japanese lesson. Going to miss senseeeeeei. And the lessons.

On Wednesday mom had a birthday. She came from work at 4 p.m. (usually comes at 6 p.m.). Before that I biked to buy her roses and a little pastry and candles for that. When she came home I started to make food and after a while she noticed the roses and the card I made for her and I got huugs~~ After we had eaten we left to flea market (bought an empty russian vodka bottle and two pink glasses...) but didn't stay there too long. I also insisted I would make coffee for mom, and she got a good laugh when there was a cup of coffee and a cute little pastry with a little pink candle waiting her in a kitchen. Urf I love her. <3

On Thursday I woke up pretty late. Mom and Matti left to Järvenpää (no idea why), so I had to go buy myself breakfast and made food for myself today, too. Also, had weird headache the whole day.

On Friday it's an Easter holiday, so no work or school for people (snort like I would do either of those).

On Saturday I'm going to Helsinki with lu_vy and we're gonna do some shopping and go to see Inkheart. We also take some ear piercings.


Also, been obsessed with Russia like whoa.


Sleep now.


  

since the last update! Hooray!
 
Didn't do much during the week (or if I did, I don't remember...)

I was supposed to update yesterday, but was too damn tired since I hadn't slept at all on Sat-Sun night and left to the flea market at 6:30 a.m. with mom and Matti. Found there three shirts, one bracelet, one necklace, door beads and a heart-shaped luminous badge.
After that we went to visit big sister. Her husband's parents came there, too. My cheeks were hurting from all the grinning after listening to their talking. And damn big sister's chicken-feta-pie was delicious (I haven't eaten a salty pie before).

Tomorrow I have the second last japanese lesson. Baww, what I'm going to do after that.
Also, going to do some shopping with mom tomorrow.



Oh, also, I do update at daytime, too!

... sometimes.

 

God I'm lazy at updating...

Uh, SO... Uuumm I had the religion exam on Wednesday, it probably went worse than history. Well, we'll see, I don't want to think about them before I get the final results. After the exam I went to get ice cream with my friend and after that she came to my house. And on Thursday, too. We probably watched movies and anime and such... can't really remember.
On Friday I............ I can't remember what I did.
On Saturday I went to Helsinki with lu_vy. We were supposed to go to watch Valkyrie, but it was being shown too late, so we just went shopping. I bought some stuff, but not much. And we also visited the National Museum. Damn that place is great.
On Sunday.............. um, can't remember anything else except I watched Ai no Kotodama (for the third time)...

Now then, some random things.
- OMG MY BIG SISTER HAS MSN. And she's like, 30+. I'm kinda weirded out. Other than that, damn cool.
- On Monday me and ly_vy registered on habbo.jp.... yeah, that's Japan's Habbo Hotel. It's open from 12 a.m. to 9 p.m., which is like 7 a.m. to 2 p.m. here in Finland... when most of the people are in school or work........ or sleeping! (Well, I'll just have to get up earlier.)
- Got this huge urge to get new clothes and stuff after watching Ai no Kotodama... damn those guys had great styles!
- I also fell in love with Fazer's Salmiakkisuklaa (salty liquorice chocolate) even though I don't like salty liquorice...

... I think that's all for now.

 

I used to update more often when I was going to school...

I didn't finish reading religion last week, but fortunately the exam is next Wednesday.
I stayed up the whole Friday-Saturday night watching xxxHolic (got totally hooked) and after I watched xxxHolic, xxxHolic: Kei, xxxHolic movie and xxxHolic OVA pt. 1, I started reading the manga (which I by the way finished on Monday). Hooked, can you tell? (B-b-but, Doumeki&Watanuki <3) Now I'm just waiting more manga and pt. 2 of the OVA. (Have been watching fanart and reading fanfics, too...) I kind of neglected all the stuff I was supposed to do because of that...

On Monday I had the Finnish essay exam. Dunno how it went and my hand was all sore after all the writing.
On Wednesday I had the history exam and it went better than I had thought.

Today was my friend's 20th birthday, so she came to pick me up somewhere around 12. Many of her relatives came to celebrate, too. I knew most of them already since I've known her from the 1st grade. They brought two sandwichcakes and one cake, all of them were delicious. And my friend had made a cake too, that was delicious too. Tasted a little like Daim. Anyway, I had fun. It was nice to see her again.

And one more thing. The xxxHolic totally sparked my interest in kyudo again. I really really really want to start that. Been wanting for a while now. I think it would suit me better than judo, that was too much more me even though I liked it.


... I think that's all for now.

 

Woah, okay, so... 2 weeks without updating.

I'm having my three-week-vacation when graduating students are supposed to read to the exams.
First week I read history, second week I... kind of lazed off. I was kinda numb at the beginning of the week, but a friend came by to visit and it cheered me a lot. Mom bought me white roses. (やっぱり、私が白いバラを好きです!) I finally ordered the pinstripe corset that I wanted! やったああ~! (Okay I just finished my japanese homework, who can tell?) I think that's all... *forgetful*

Now I'm starting to read religion (I can't find my second course book anywhere, oh snap).
Tomor- erm, today I have a history exam (not the real exam, just a rehearsal where students can raise their grades or just sit and listen) from 1 p.m. to 4 p.m. and after that I'll go to wait the beginning of my japanese lesson, so no time for reading. I'll continue that on Wednesday.



... I really should go to sleep since I'll have to wake up earlier for the exam...

 

No, seriously. Now that I think about it, it's kinda comical.

So I woke up somewhere around 8 a.m. (on Saturday... that's just plain horrible) and was feeling kind of uneasy. I laid in my bed awake for a while, and then I just had to go to the toilet because I knew I was going to vomit. And I did. Mom and Matti had had norovirus so apparently I caught it too. Compared to theirs, mine was much milder though. I went back to sleep and woke up again at 2-3 p.m. I had terrible stomache aches but they stopped after I ate dinner. Afterwards my stomach just felt kind of heavy and I got occasional gripes. Haven't vomited after the morning, thank god. Took a nap 22-23 p.m. and no one missed me on msn while I was sleeping. Should I go to sleep, I'm a little tired and cold and still feeling a little uneasy...

I really should update more often.

So, the Tracon came and went, the day was made of fail (I forgot my sandals home, our hairdos were what they were, we missed our train when we left etc) but it was still awesome and great and fun etc. And we even made a couple of friends.
I should've write about this right after I got home, so this would've been more detailed, but whatever. Was too tired then, am too tired now.

Then there were couple of days when I did nothing (staying inside & surfing on the net).

Today we had Penkkarit (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Penkkarit) which is supposed to be all great. It was not. I wasn't in the mood at all. I was alone, I wasn't dressed up, half of the celebrating students reeked of alcohol and pretty much behaved like that. I didn't participate in almost anything, not the morning breakfast where students gave presents to their own teachers, not the lorry-ride, not the traditional cruise after Penkkarit. I left from school before the lorries left from our schoolyard. I visited mom at her job but they had too much customers so she didn't have time for me. I waited on the street to see the lorries and when they passed by I cheered up a little. That didn't last long though. Went to home and to sleep since I didn't feel like being awake. Woke up somewhere around 6 p.m. I guess. Surfed on the net. Didn't talk much to anyone today.

This was supposed to be a day of celebration in my life and now it's almost over.

I feel like crying.

So today was the Finnish baccalaureate. Dunno how it went. It was on the news later.

Was really tired after getting home and not in that good mood. Later it got worse for certain reasons. Then I fell asleep at 8 p.m. and was pissed off when I woke up just now and heard mom closing the computer and putting the lights off. I FUCKING HATE THAT. I still had so much to do and she just let me sleep. I haven't even brushed my teeth! I was also supposed to go to the fucking shower but no. And now I have no clue what people have said to me on the msn because mom closed the computer so that the msn didn't save the conversations. That annoys the hell out of me.

So now that I'm all awake up and pissed off I GUESS I'LL STAY UP THE WHOLE FUCKING NIGHT.

TO TRACOOOOON.

Mom put a new zipper to my cosplay pants (old one was broken).
The pouch is done, too.
I still need to shorten the sleeves of my shirt tomorrow
Oh, and I got the earrings on Friday~
I'll have to check if I can cut my net pantyhose to a leggings, so I wouldn't have to buy those.
After that, it'll be just sandals and the leg holster~


I have Monday and Tuesday off, then there's some graduating infos at the school on Wednesday, the first Finnish baccalaureate on Thursday and on Friday I have day off again and lu_vy will come here~~
And on Saturday, TRACOOOOONN. *sparkle*





Big sister visited here on Saturday. <3